Sorry I haven't posted in a few weeks, life sometimes interrupts.
Many of you have asked about what eating plan I'm following and I do recall that I said I would share that during this process. I'm a bit hesitant though because it's not my plan, I received it from someone else and I don't want to step on their toes economically or otherwise in order to share. So I'm looking for a way to link to their site and they may ask for a small fee for the advice. I will keep you up to date as to that process.
Trust. Big Issue with me. I trust no one. Never have. While that is a defensive mechanism I've built over time in response to others trustworthiness, or lack thereof, its' not a trait I'm particularly fond of. The question for me is how to negate my natural instincts and go with my head, not my gut.
In the past month I've had this situation come up several times. I'll make a decision with my head and afterword I get intense buyers remorse. I start to question myself and it's because while my head says this is ok, you can trust this situation, you can trust these individuals, my guts are tied up in knots. In fact my instincts bombard me with icky feelings and it quite literally drives me crazy.
I had not realized how much of my decision making is not in my head. A year ago I would have told you just the opposite in fact. I've started to notice that I intuitively pick up on feelings, vibes and energy when I decide things. I've hired many a person not based on their qualifications, but on the vibe I get from them. I just never realized that I was doing it. Now that I do, I just need to learn to trust it. Because quite frankly I have really good instincts. I also need to learn that sometimes my head isn't right, those icky feelings are trying to tell me something that I need to know.
Before this epiphany I think I used to try and avoid those icky feelings. I would ignore them, I would try to eat them away, drink them away, or some other avoidance mechanism. Quite frankly they are not fun feelings. But a wise person once told me you have to feel, good or bad, you have to allow yourself those emotions, or you are dead inside. I've spent my whole life trying to avoid the nasty icky instincts that I have, when I really should have opened myself up to them, they have served me well, if subconsciously.
I hope everybody has a great weekend. And remember, let people in your life fuck up every once in while. That's what makes them human and that's what makes them loveable. I for one don't want to be in a relationship with a robot. I apologize to anybody out there who I've judged lacking because they were going thru their shit. I'll try my best not to do that anymore.
Good weekend all.
Many of you have asked about what eating plan I'm following and I do recall that I said I would share that during this process. I'm a bit hesitant though because it's not my plan, I received it from someone else and I don't want to step on their toes economically or otherwise in order to share. So I'm looking for a way to link to their site and they may ask for a small fee for the advice. I will keep you up to date as to that process.
Trust. Big Issue with me. I trust no one. Never have. While that is a defensive mechanism I've built over time in response to others trustworthiness, or lack thereof, its' not a trait I'm particularly fond of. The question for me is how to negate my natural instincts and go with my head, not my gut.
In the past month I've had this situation come up several times. I'll make a decision with my head and afterword I get intense buyers remorse. I start to question myself and it's because while my head says this is ok, you can trust this situation, you can trust these individuals, my guts are tied up in knots. In fact my instincts bombard me with icky feelings and it quite literally drives me crazy.
I had not realized how much of my decision making is not in my head. A year ago I would have told you just the opposite in fact. I've started to notice that I intuitively pick up on feelings, vibes and energy when I decide things. I've hired many a person not based on their qualifications, but on the vibe I get from them. I just never realized that I was doing it. Now that I do, I just need to learn to trust it. Because quite frankly I have really good instincts. I also need to learn that sometimes my head isn't right, those icky feelings are trying to tell me something that I need to know.
Before this epiphany I think I used to try and avoid those icky feelings. I would ignore them, I would try to eat them away, drink them away, or some other avoidance mechanism. Quite frankly they are not fun feelings. But a wise person once told me you have to feel, good or bad, you have to allow yourself those emotions, or you are dead inside. I've spent my whole life trying to avoid the nasty icky instincts that I have, when I really should have opened myself up to them, they have served me well, if subconsciously.
I hope everybody has a great weekend. And remember, let people in your life fuck up every once in while. That's what makes them human and that's what makes them loveable. I for one don't want to be in a relationship with a robot. I apologize to anybody out there who I've judged lacking because they were going thru their shit. I'll try my best not to do that anymore.
Good weekend all.
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